Just a brief update since I haven't written one in a while

All is well in Michelle's world. I started my job with Target about a week ago and things are overall good. I really like the people I work with and everyone just seems really nice and willing to help. I like that its completely different from Grocery work and I like the customers or at Target we call them (Guests). Its funny really, I'm getting used to all their lingo and everything else that comes with a new job. The first few days I was there though I had some issues that arouse. None of them were my fault but their lack of scheduling. I knew because I was still training that it wouldn't be a good idea to accept extra hours, only the ones they had me scheduled for. I was still thinking that geez I'm just getting used to things and you already want me to work extra. I didn't feel comfortable, but I did work some extra not much though. After a few days had passed I got a chance to talk to my bosses boss and she informed me that because I'm training they would prefer me not to just because they have a set schedule and what not for those of us that are new. In any case, things are good and I know I'll still be learning even past my two weeks of training. All in all, I like Target very much and I also get a 10% employee discount. Its cool, but I also read in my handbook that to use it and then to pay for things they won't let you use your debit card but only cash and check. I find that a little silly but I guess it makes sense. I guess I get paid this Friday which I'm very happy about. Although my money I'll be saving up to get my car fixed, need to pay bills and just saving because its a good habit to get into.

So much of the time, when I do get money I like to burn it but really I know its not being a good steward of what the Lord has given me. Its nice to buy things, but I have to constantly determine if whether I really need something or just want it.

I've been going through 3 weeks of free counseling, its a long story. But I've been looking for a church to call my home and I fell upon a church that has a licensed counselor and who is on their staff. He is retiring from the pastoral staff but will still be going to the church. At the time he was in charge of getting to know the new people coming in and he happened to give me a call and the door just opened for me to get some good one on one counseling from someone who's been trained for that. It has been really healing and really neat to have someone to talk to about problems and I feel much better after doing so. Counseling I would recommend for anyone who wants to be a better person and a better follower of the Lord. It has very much helped in my relationship with God and with others. I can't wait to get started on my training to be a counselor one day. Now that I've had a better look at what a counselor does all the more do I feel that, that is what I want to be doing and what I feel the Lord is directing me to do.

Well anyway, not much more to tell. My parents house in Idaho has a buyer which is totally awesome.

You know one thing I've noticed about myself and many others is that, when we go through very hard challenging times we tend to not think God is that good or we tend to not thank him or praise him so much. We because were humans always get caught up in paying too much attention to our circumstances and not enough on our Lord. Its a normal human thing, but I have to train and teach myself to look always on the Lord. I've been experiencing his true awesome love. I've seen myself draw closer to the Lord through these tough times. You know life will never ever be easy no matter how much of a christian we are. Life will always be turned upside down. Not because there is a God who doesn't love us but because he happens to know more stuff about us then we know about ourselves. He must know I need challenges to grow. How could I know that. I usually don't want to have anything to do with anything that is hard. I usually want to run the other way and resist hard times. All in all my character must need it, my faith must need it and my heart must learn to depend more and more on the Lord. Ultimately I can't do anything without him and even if I were to try everything would fall flat to the ground. Through my counseling I've come to experience and see more and more of God's love for me. Learning to respect myself and to love myself for who I really am. To not compare myself to others but change what I can and leave the rest to God. He is not meant to be our servant but we are his servants and his is our master. He is all that I know I could ever fully need.

I think for now this is about all I think I want to write, but later I'm sure I'll have much more to share. Thanks for reading and God Bless.